YOUNG MOTHERHOOD

Are you an ageist mama? Have you ever found yourself sitting there, pondering that, ‘that girl is far too young to have a baby’? Or, on the other hand, are you a victim of an ageist mum or person? Have you ever been sitting in a café while your child screams and refuses to eat making you already feel like a failure to realise there is already a mum 5 years older sitting in the corner judging you as her child the same age sits nicely?

Now, do not sit there and act all perfect as you read this because we know we have all silently judged another mum at least once in our heads. However, most of us are quickly brought back to reality when our child reminds us how they can go from cute to feral real quick, then we get some guilt’s for putting our judgey pants on – well this is the normal scenario for most of us. It has been made aware to me that not all mothers function this way though.

Being a young mama of two has been an eye opener. I have been told a few things by various different people and it always seems to come back to my age. Why is it that some (to be clear there are plenty of older mums/people who aren’t judgey but there are plenty who are) older mothers think they are better than a women who became a mum at 21 because they became a mother at 29?

I sit in the ‘young mum category’ and I am proud to say I am a young mum and a dam good one at that. I do feel as though I have to constantly prove to those older, that I do know what I am doing, regardless of age. There is such a preconception on young mothers, by everyone – not just older mums. Example of this being that when Harlee-Jae was only 2 weeks old and she ended up in hospital, we were asked some pretty interesting questions from the doctor-

  • Do you have a cellphone?
  • Does your cellphone have credit?
  • Will you ring an ambulance if something is wrong?
  • Do you have a car to drive to the hospital in an emergency?
  • What sort of housing situation are you in?
  • Do you have heating in your house?

Well slap me sideways and call me sally. I knew I looked like crap because I had a newborn who was sick and bugger all sleep but never did I think I looked homeless, haha! Now sure this might be some sort of protocol but really. Did I really look like someone who would not ring an ambulance if I needed one? I still think I got asked these questions purely because of my age, I bet they didn’t ask the 35 year old mum down the corridor the same questions!

This is what I really felt like saying to the doctor but I was far too tired to care at that point. ”I do own a cellphone which always has credit, shock horror huh. Another crazy fact, we own a bloody car! It even has petrol in it and I even have a full license to drive safely to the hospital, if need be. And I know, you’re probably thinking ‘bet they live at home with their parents or in a run down crappy flat.’ We actually own our own home! All by ourselves! It even has a fireplace to keep us warm just too really throw you off.” Could you have imagined the look on his face if that is what I really did say, ha!

The most common phrases people love to throw at you when they find out you are pregnant usually include-

  • Oh you are so young, why have children now when you have your whole life ahead of you? Yes, I am young but having children young only means I get to enjoy my whole life with my children in it. When you are 35 with a new born, changing nappies and still having sleepless nights, I will be sleeping peacefully in my own bed while my grown ass children make their own food and wipe their own asses, ha!
  • You are just a child yourself! Thanks, for the input but 21 is not a child, I am a grown, independent woman who can look after herself and children.
  • Shouldn’t you wait until your friends are having kids? I have never been one to do something because someone else is; everyone leads their own journey and will do things when they are ready!
  • You should have travelled the world first! Has it ever occurred to people that travelling the world is not everyone’s cup of tea or that maybe I would prefer to travel when I am older?
  • You have not had time to enjoy your twenties! Oh sorry nancy drew, I wasn’t aware you were so invested in my life to know what I have and haven’t enjoyed! I have had my fair share of drunken weekends and concerts now I plan to invest my youth into my children.
  • Your parents are far too young to be grandparents! Gosh, I never knew there was an age restriction on when you can and cannot become a grandparent! These people would be shocked to know my youthful parents in there 40’s love having grandchildren and have the energy to enjoy them.
  • Having a baby is really expensive, can you afford that at your age? Babies are always going to be expensive. No matter what age you are, you will make it work and give your baby what is best in your ability.

Then there are just the downright offensive comments-

  • Was it an accident? Really, why is this such a big deal and why cannot we use the term surprised? Like yeah I was not planning on this right now but I would not call any of my children accidents. They were a surprise and I would not have it any other way!
  • It is just not right. You are far too young! Well regardless of my age, am I doing a good job? Yes, you say. So why not back off about the age side of things!
  • At least you got it out of the way early… Yeah really out of the way. The kid is our kid, and will be our kid forever so I am not quite sure how it’s ‘out of the way’, Ha!
  • Did you consider abortion? Do I really need to explain why this question is not okay? RESPECT people. It really is not hard!
  • Wedding must be happening before the baby is born then. Why does a ring determine if we will be good parents? To be honest, a child is a lot more testing and way more of a life commitment than a wedding soooo short answer, no.
  • You might regret having kids so young. The. Heck. What sort of assumption is this? I am pretty confident when I say that every mother who has had a child young would never regret them. But hey, what do I know? Because I am just a ‘young’ mum right. 😛

Why is it okay for people to be so offensive to mothers regarding age? Tell us how we are doing but do not regard it to our age. We do not need to be reminded every single day that we are young. We know our age and if a child is being brought up in a safe, happy and healthy way then who is anyone to judge?

So next time, you want to judge a mum purely because of her age, stop and think is it really worth it? Because in all honesty, I am as much like you as you are like me. We all have bad mum days and we all have amazing mum days. We all feel mum guilts. We all feel like we could be doing a better job and we all feel some crazy love for our little humans but it is time for mum’s to stand together and have each other’s back regardless of age, race, working mum, stay at home, mum of one or mum of ten. We are all doing what’s best for our families and busting our butts to make the best of this crazy adventure we call life.

So, in case no one has told you today. YOU are a good mum, YOU are doing an amazing job and YOUR little humans are so lucky to have you! ❤

Lace xxx

HOSPITAL BAG MUST HAVES

Your due date may be quickly approaching like mine and you may be left asking yourself, what do I really need to pack? I know this was a big question of mine with my first pregnancy. Second time round, I am hoping to be slightly better with my packing so I thought I’d share with you all what my hospital bag must haves are.

I have narrowed down my packing into four different bags with also an extras list that may or may not suit you. Also have given a bit of a mum hack at the end if you want to take an easy way out of packing some of the essentials!

So let’s start with the beginning! Labour bag. Believe it or not, it is smart to have a certain bag packed just for labour! It doesn’t need to be massive, it will just contain a few crucial things.

  • Drink

Have a water bottle handy so you can keep refilling it as you please if need be. I also found I felt like some sort of juice so wish I had something like powerade on hand for the first labour!

  • Phone Charger

You may not need it but it is better to have it! Especially if you are due, a phone upgrade like myself and your battery dies after a few hours. You want to be able to let all your loved ones know when your bundle of joy arrives!

  • Snacks

I did not have time for snacks the first time round but who knows for the second time! It is also handy to have some snacks on hand for partner and whoever else may be present at your birth.

  • Something to labour in

I personally find it easy to just chuck on a hospital gown but I know some people would rather not. That will be what I do again this time but if you prefer your own clothing, pack something loose and comfortable. Even pack some bikini’s if you plan on trying a water birth.

  • Copy of your birth plan

It’s a pretty stressful time and things can be forgotten when you are having your baby. This may or may not bother you. I personally do not have a birth plan; my only plan is to have a healthy baby and me. If you do have more of a structured plan, make sure to have a copy to ensure you can do what you have planned as well as possible.

  • List of who to contact once baby is born

Might sound silly – like, you wouldn’t forget who to contact but believe it or not you probably will! I am so glad I had this planned out before I had Harlee and then Ben and my mum could contact everyone who was necessary without pestering me.

  • Camera

If you are like me, the last thing you want is photos of yourself but trust me it is nice to have photos to look back on, especially of your new little bundle of joy.

This stuff may not even get used during your labour but it is super handy to have. I found that my labour was so quick we never had time for snacks or time to even go on our phones but I know of people who have been in labour for over 24 hours – which is a super long time so all of this would come in handy!

Everyone may not need this next list. The Dad bag. For anyone who lives in a small town can probably relate to this. We have to travel an hour away from home for my labour but will hopefully be back to recover in Hawera Maternity. However, this also means your partner will need a bag that can live in the car if he plans to stay close by! I won’t go into too much detail with this bag, I’ll keep it pretty simple.

  • Clothes

Males are pretty carefree when it comes to clothes, well Ben is anyway – Hah. Just have a couple of comfortable outfits for him. Don’t forget UNDIES and SOCKS!

  • Toothbrush

Because who doesn’t like to brush their teeth and feel nice and refreshed!

  • Phone Charger

We all know how important this is, you want to be able to contact each other when he isn’t able to be at maternity.

Very basic list but a lot of people forget about their partners! Some people may require more but like I say Ben is super easy and does not require a lot at all.

Next is the most important bag! Mum’s Bag. If you are a new mum you will probably be stumped on where to even start and in all honesty, even as a second time mum, I didn’t know where to start! However, here I am now giving you my list!

  • Clothes
    • Comfy, loose fitting pants. I am taking comfy, harem like, type pants. I found these the best after I had Harlee. The warehouse have some great ones for only $20 if you are looking for something comfy yet nice.
    • Loose tops. Loose tops for many reasons, a couple being – one, to hide the new acquired mum tum and two, a top that makes breastfeeding accessible and easy.
    • Maternity bras or/and sports bras. If you are breastfeeding you may also find taking maternity singlets helpful. Number one priority is comfort for me though!
    • PJ’s! We all love pj’s so don’t forget them! Whether you’re a nightie gal or a shorts and singlet gal, make sure its nice and accessible for breastfeeding.
    • Comfy undies! The last thing you want is uncomfortable undies when your vag is all swollen and feeling like its hanging down to your knees – haha! Some people prefer the bigger the better but I found bonds boyleg did the trick for me!
    • Socks and slippers. Always need a couple of pairs of socks on hand!
    • Some kind of Jersey or cardigan. I found Maternity really bloody hot but I will pack a couple of loose knitted tops just in case.
    • Going home outfit. This may or may not interest you. However, I wanted to look half decent in our photos for going home so I have some trusty stretchy ‘jean’ like pants that still fit at 37 weeks that will be my go to, going home pants with a nice top!
  • Toiletries
    • Shampoo and conditioner. Bonus points for travel size!
    • Body wash/soap. Something sensitive is probably a bit better for the downstairs apartment.
    • Facewash
    • Facial wipes
    • Toothbrush and toothpaste
    • Make-up. As much or as little as you prefer as everyone is different. I will most likely stick to the basics – Foundation, eyebrow kit, eyeliner, mascara (waterproof for the baby blues days :P), blush and maybe a lippy for going home. This is my everyday make-up and I find it helps me feel half normal after pushing out a baby!
    • Deodorant
    • Body, face and hand moisturisers come in handy but it is up to you which ones you actually need/use.
    • Lip balm – your lips will most likely be dry as the Sahara desert.
    • Nipple cream – there are plenty to choose from but I found good old Bepenthen worked best for me!
    • Hairbrush, hair ties and bobby pins. You may even be a headband wearer!
    • Breast pads
    • Maternity pads. When I say maternity pads I mean anything that resembles a surfboard for your undies because you will need it!
    • The hospital do have these but I am a bit funny about using these on my face because one, someone may have wiped there fufu with it and I don’t care if its been washed, I still don’t want to put it near my face – hah! Two, the ones at hospital aren’t nice and soft like my ones from home!
  • Medications and supplements you may be on

I will be personally taking some Panadol and Spatone – for my iron levels and some vitamins. I may even look into something to help with my breastfeeding!

  • Pillow

Nothing beats your own pillow and the ones at hospital suck!

  • Phone charger

I did mention this in the above list for labour but it is better to mention it again then forget it! I will also be taking my apple watch charger if any of you guy’s need this too!

  • Snacks

Hospital food sucks in my opinion so make sure to pack yourself a few healthy and unhealthy snacks :P.

That is my rundown for mum’s bag. The next bag is the second most important bag. The Baby bag! All that brand new baby stuff you have brought can finally be packed into a bag all ready for your bundle of joy!

  • Clothes
    • Singlets
    • Merino all in ones
    • Bodysuits
    • Sleep gowns
    • Knitted cardigan
    • A couple of outfits – keep it simple, but just in case you do feel like dressing him/her in something other than bodysuits.
    • Socks and booties
    • Mittens
    • Hats
    • Going home outfit. Obviously this isn’t a necessity but I like to have a going home outfit which will be an awesome keepsake once they are older. Yes you want it to be cute but make sure it is still practical!
  • Muslin wraps and/or swaddles
  • Bibs and burp clothes

You may end up with a reflux baby who likes to spew everywhere like Harlee was!

  • Blanket
  • Dummies and bottles

Obviously not all people will be willing to take bottles but I am a firm believer of fed is best and if breastfeeding doesn’t work for me I will have my bottles and formula ready to go this time around!

  • Nappies and wipes
  • Baby bath stuff

We personally prefer using Ecostore baby products so I will be taking this brand of the following-

  • Baby sleepytime bath
  • Baby shampoo
  • Baby moisturiser
  • Baby Nappy balm
  • Breastfeeding pillow or tri pillow

This helped me so much when I was feeding Harlee so will definitely be doing it again!

  • Capsule and capsule cover

That should pretty much cover everything you need to know for your little bundles bag! Keep in mind babies sizes can vary so much! I had packed nothing but newborn for Harlee and found a lot of it didn’t fit! So just have a few varying sizes to accommodate a big or really small baby!

The next little list I am going to cover is just a few extra things you may like to pack. Definitely not must haves but they are things I will be taking and figure they may be some other mama’s out there who would too!

  • A gift for an older sibling from the new baby

It can be a whole new ball game for an only child who is getting a sibling so a nice way to make them feel special is to give them a gift from there new brother or sister! For Harlee, I have just purchased a book from Kmart called ‘You’re a big sister!’. She is still young so I didn’t want to spend a fortune on something because she won’t even understand! This book was only $4 however! Bargain!

  • Hair straightener and Hair drier

I may not even use these but I like to have them on hand!

  • Milestone cards
  • Cuddly, baby shusher, lulla doll or some sort of comforter

All of these are definitely not needs but I’m all for trying things to help settle babies so we will be trying the baby shusher which worker wonders for Harlee. Ill also take the lulla doll which was Harlee’s but she didn’t like it and a sleepy tot teddy!

So, that is my lists, I am well aware that we are all so different and tend to find different things important so I have tried to keep it as generic as possible! I do quickly want to tell you about how I am going to be a bit of a cheat this time around though. I am not sure if you have heard of this awesome NZ business or not which has recently been started this year – Bundles for Bumps.

Bundles for Bumps specialises in pre-packed hospital bags! Bundles for Bumps was started by a fellow NZ mama, Shelley. She has three girls of her own and wanted to take the stress out of packing hospital bags! They come with all the essentials and offer all natural and organic products which is a total bonus!

She sells things for mum and for baby and even for the rest of the family, I recommend you go and check them out! Let me just point out that this is in no way sponsored, I genuinely love this idea that I have gone and purchased my own pre-packed hospital bag!

I have purchased the Mum essentials – pre packed hospital bag. I am actually really slack and have only just purchased it so haven’t received my bag as of yet but I know I will love it just from reading about it and I will do an update on my Instagram stories once I receive it so make sure you check it out later this week sometime! And never fear if there are things I do not love about it, I will be sure to share that with you too! This bag contains the following-

  • Tom & Luke Snackaballs 70g x2
  • The Moa Body Range Miss Foxy 100ml (Great for massage during labour)
  • Ruby Blue Hair Ties x2 (Can also be worn on the wrist as a reminder which side to breastfeed off next)
  • Wotnot Natural Face Wipes with Travel Case and Mirror 25pk
  • Ecostore Beeswax Lipbalm 4.5g
  • Sorbent Travel Tissues
  • Terry Cotton Slippers
  • Jockey Cotton Full Brief Black x2
  • Jockey Ankle Socks Black
  • Ecostore Essentials Mini Pack (Shampoo 35ml, Conditioner 35ml, Body Wash 35ml Moisturiser 35ml)
  • Bamboo Hairbrush
  • Mama Bear Bamboo Toothbrush
  • Grin Natural Toothpaste 100g (Allergy warning: Contains Propolis)
  • Tankis Natural Deodorant 70g
  • Haakaa Natural Breast Pads 36pk
  • Natracare Maternity Pads 10pk
  • Manuka Health Breast Gel Discs (Store these in the fridge when not using during feed times, and when you reapply they are like magical cold drops of bliss for sore and cracked nipples )
  • Purelan Nipple Cream 7g
  • True Blue Organics Hand Sanitiser 60ml
  • A list of additional items you may like to pack from home

You also may choose to receive your package in a Bundles for Bumps Calico drawstring bag or a Herschel Novel Duffle Bag. They are both different prices depending on which you choose. If you want to know more details head over to Bundles for Bumps here for more info on pricing and all there other awesome products!

So, I have just gone and knocked a few things off my packing list because of my awesome pre packed bag on its way but either way my hospital bag must haves will hopefully be helpful for you! It may be the perfect list for you or maybe just a helpful guide but I hope it has helped you in some way! I hope you all have an awesome week and come back and check the blog out next Sunday!

Lace xxx

THIRD TRIMESTER UPDATE- WEEK 35!

 

Just like that, we are at week 35! Five bloody weeks to go. In just over a month, we will have not one, but two tiny humans to care for! Super exciting but yet super scary! I have an app on my phone, which happily reminded me I have 33 days to go. When it is said like that, it really does not feel like that long! So, since I am nearing the end, I thought I better give an update on pregnancy and life in general!

I find it so crazy how fast; this pregnancy is going/has gone. I think I almost feel bad for this little babe because I cared so much with Harlee and was super organised but I guess it is not that I don’t care about this pregnancy it’s just that I have got a nearly one year old keeping me on my toes constantly. With your first, you kind of spend your days in the last weeks waiting and waiting, this is definitely not the case this time. I still have plenty to do! Here’s just a few things on my list off the top of my head-

  • Little mates nursery is still not finished! I do have most of the necessities but the room itself is nowhere near done but hey, as long as he’s got clothes and a bed we will be right – hah. I do plan to get most of his room sorted over the next couple of weeks so fingers crossed I stick to it and once it’s done I’ll do a little blog post on it! Well hopefully!
  • I haven’t even thought about my hospital bag yet! In my head I’m definitely going to make the 40 week mark so I haven’t been stressing about this too much. However, we all know things don’t necessarily work out the way we think, especially when it comes to babies – hah. So, I’ll get onto packing that bag in the next couple of weeks too, just in case! Again, I do plan to do a blog post on this too, to try take away the hassles and the ‘have I got everything’ questions when packing your hospital bag!
  • NAME! We still have no idea whatsoever what this little guy is going to be called! We get ideas of what we think we like then a few days later one of us goes off the idea. I always knew I liked Harlee for a girl so always had my heart set on it. Her name was so easy, I expected it to be just as easy this time but I could not be more wrong!
  • House renovations. For those of you, who know us; know we have been renovating our house! We have ripped out two walls, put in a completely new kitchen, put in new bi-folding doors in our lounge, repainted all the bedrooms and had a supporting beam put in where one of the walls was taken out. We have accomplished a lot but we still have a lot to do! We still need to build a ‘fake’ wall around our pantry just to give it a nicer look, gib over the new beam and a tiny bit of the wall, rip the rest of the wallpaper off, and repaint ceilings and wallpaper. In the perfect world, this would all be finished before the baby arrives however, this may not be the case! We will try get as much done as we can but between Ben being a shift worker and my dad being a shift worker (who has been helping us) and just life in general, we are running out of time!
  • Harlee-Jae’s first birthday is just around the corner! In fact only 10 days before her brothers due date! So, on top of all of the above, I’m also planning a first birthday! We are keeping it pretty chilled for her first birthday. It’s more of just a gathering of family and a few close friends but even this requires preparation! I think I’m doing pretty well so far though, most things are organised for the party side of things and I have most of her birthday presents sorted! Lets just hope baby brain hasn’t let me forget anything major!

That is just a little run down of a few of the big things that are left to do. On top of that there is still all the little things like birthdays – august is an extremely big month for us with birthdays! Getting the house sorted and ready for baby life again and just life in general! It feels like one day I had six months to go, now I have practically one month to go!

If you read my labour uncut blog post, you will probably remember me talking about haemorrhaging with Harlee. If not I will just give you a little bit of a run down. My mum is a known bleeder and my midwife was also her midwife so she was pretty on to it with my labour and wasn’t willing to take any chances! I had an IV line put in my arm about an hour before Harlee was born and lucky I did because as my midwife thought, I did haemorrhage. From what my midwife tells me, it was pretty bad, although I never realised this because she remained so calm and got it under control pretty quickly. I did know something wasn’t right when every doctor at our little hospital came running in but didn’t think too much of it!

However, I recovered well and everything was good! Until I got pregnant again and I found out it is likely for this to happen again and generally the second time is worse than the first. As you can imagine this has made me pretty dam nervous for labour. Labour is nerve wrecking enough on its own, minus complications! My mum bleed extremely bad with her third – my brother and this makes me pretty nervous. I have a tendency to follow my mums footsteps, problems and all. I have to give birth at Taranaki Base Hospital this time just in case they cannot stop the bleeding. So, if worse does come to worse I can be taken into theatre to stop the bleeding. Our little hospital in Hawera does not have these sort of facilities but I am hoping everything will go smoothly enough for me to come back to Hawera Maternity because I do not really fancy being an hour away from home!

I even contemplated asking to have a caesarean but my midwife was quick to tell me I can still bleed in a caesarean, and quite badly too! The worse thing about it with a caesarean is if they can’t get the bleeding under control then they will give you a hysterectomy and that’s not really a decision I want made for me! So the plan is to go in with no plan – Hah. If I have him naturally, cool. If I have a caesarean, that’s cool too. All I want is the best option for a healthy baby and a healthy me! I’ve decided to stick to that plan because I’ll be honest, its freaking me out a lot! I could be freaking out over nothing because I may not hemorrage but then again it is likely I will. I just have to keep positive!

My pregnancy symptoms this trimester, have consisted of low iron = meaning no energy, excruciating back pain, nausea and indigestion! My iron levels are extremely low! So low that my midwife was contemplating me getting an iron transfusion, mostly because low iron levels mean more likely to haemorrhage and more likely to haemorrhage worse. So as you can imagine getting on top of this is very important! Iron tablets are not my friend though. They make me extremely constipated which make me get the worse sore tummies which don’t make pregnant life any better. I have found an alternative called Spatone, which is great! The only downfall is that it is about $38 for 28 sachets which works out a hell of a lot more expensive than iron tablets that are subsidised!

That awesome excruciating back pain I talked about in my second trimester blog post has been back in full force! Ben has even had to take days off work to stay home and help me out because I was not able to lift Harlee! I don’t even know how to explain the pain but it is my lower back and it sends shooting pain down my legs and through my whole body. It really is not much fun at all! The only things that I find that help are my back belt and a hot water bottle. Even these two things aren’t great but they are better than nothing.

My indigestion has come back with vengeance in this pregnancy also! I think it may be a little bit of acid reflux as well, it’s not great but luckily my old mate gaviscon is up in the cupboard ready to come to my rescue everyday – Hah! The old wives tale is that indigestion means a baby with lots of hair which was very true for miss Harlee so hopefully that’s what it means for this one too!

The one thing I didn’t experience with Harlee’s pregnancy that I have in this one is getting morning sickness again in the third trimester! It hasn’t been extreme morning sickness like some people get but, it has been enough to put me out make me feel pretty blah! The only thing I have found to help is to take it easy! Put all the house chores to the side and save all my energy for Harlee and rest when I get the chance. Oh and a bit of ginger beer always seems to settle my tummy too!

And like every pregnant women in the last few weeks, sleep becomes a distant memory! I am a tummy sleeper so getting comfortable is extremely hard! I also feel the need to pee 10,000 times a night and seem to have really bad insomnia. So any sleep is good sleep at this point – hah! I also feel massive this pregnancy! I constantly find myself feeling uncomfortable and in some sort of pain – especially at bedtime! I don’t remember being this uncomfortable with Harlee until I hit the last couple of weeks. So, five weeks is actually still sounding like a long time to feel this way! Even the most simplest tasks, like getting off the couch are so bloody hard – hah.

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Photo on the left is 36 weeks with Harlee-Jae. Photo on the right is 34 weeks with little man.

So despite all the unenjoyable things, the end is near! I complain a lot and say how much I dislike pregnancy but one day I will probably miss it! I hope that was a good little update for you all and I hope to do another one closer to my due date! If you have any questions about anything, do not hesitate to ask me! I am an open book! Catch you all next week or head over to Instagram and give us a follow and keep up to date with our days on Insta Stories!

Lace xxx

SECOND TRIMESTER

As I am nearing the end of the second trimester, I thought I would give a little bit of an insight of how the second trimester has been for me!

So, you finally passed that dreaded first 12 weeks, which I have written about here, if you have not read about it! This can be an awesome feeling, well for me it was anyway! I loved that I finally fitted in the ‘safe zone’ and did not feel like I could not tell people anymore. It was all out in the open!

Both pregnancies I suffered morning sickness. At the time I believed they were at similar levels but now looking back at it, I was definitely sicker first time round with Harlee-Jae. I was lucky enough that my morning sickness did start to fade at around 14 weeks. Then I find you enter this stage of ‘am I even pregnant?’ Well I am not sure if this happens for everyone but for me at around 15 weeks, all of those symptoms you have in the first 12 weeks start to fade. I no longer felt sick, did not have a visible bump and what I did have just looked like I had eaten too much and was sporting a food baby bump, hah. With Harlee-Jae, I felt this stage went on for so long! Obviously, she was in there because of my 20 week scan but I didn’t start feeling any sort of baby kicks until 22 weeks – so for a good 7 weeks I felt reasonably normal.

This time round it did not last as long as I did start feeling baby kicks at 18 weeks and I did start showing a whole lot earlier then what I believe I did with Harlee! However, if you get to this am I even pregnant feeling, do not try and stress about it! It’s so normal and I say enjoy it while it lasts, because before you know it a whole new list of pregnancy symptoms will be well and truly in force and you will not be doubting if you are pregnant at all!

So back to those first baby kicks I was talking about – these are pretty awesome! I remember being pregnant for the first time and thinking, am I feeling my baby kick or is my stomach just rumbling? It is a very surreal feeling. You should feel baby’s first movements or quickening, as they like to call it, somewhere between 16-25 weeks. If you are a first time mum and you are nearing the 25 week mark and thinking why can’t I feel my baby? Do not stress! With Harlee, I didn’t start feeling anything until around 22 weeks and even then, it was like, am I? It was not until around 25 weeks that I knew I could definitely feel her every day. I know this stressed me out as a first time mum. Many other mums always feeling their baby’s from so early on then there was me who couldn’t help but worry! Best advice is to let it happen when it happens! If you do feel like something is not right, do not hesitate to ask your midwife or GP. Everyone’s pregnancy is different so do not compare yours to others! Before you know it, your little babe will be having a raging party of one in there and keeping you up all night, hah!

The appearance of the bump! This can happen at any time, first time mums are usually any time after 12 weeks. However second time mums could be even sooner! I feel like you definitely hit that start mark and think hmmmm is it a bump or am I just bloated. Never fear the true formation of a real bump will be apparent before you know it and you can kiss the days of sleeping comfortably goodbye! With Harlee, I liked my bump. I felt like it was a nice size and it was just a bump! However, this time round I am not feeling that way! I am not sure if it’s a second time pregnancy thing or if it’s a boy pregnancy thing but I feel like everything is expanding! I feel like the weight is distributing itself all over my body. All I can think in my head is, how big am I going to get!? I think this is completely normal to feel like this and I need to remember my body never had a chance to try and get back to normal after Harlee because I was pregnant when she was three months old! I see photos of pre pregnant me and think argh am I ever going to look like that again? I know how easy it is to let this stuff get you down and it still does bother me some days but I try and stop myself and think Lacey, you are growing a baby, for the second time and that’s amazing in itself. I need to be proud of what my body has done, is doing, and so do all you mummas! Embrace the mum bod I say.

 

Now I am definitely putting this one down to a boy – increased appetite! Around 16 weeks I found I was sooooo hungry, even Ben noticed it. I could all of a sudden smash back a big bag of chips by myself; I could eat a whole pizza or easily eat four bits of toast. I love food in general but I felt like I was eating for five not just two! I never felt like my appetite increased that much with Harlee. I am just going with the, if I am hungry I will eat and blame it all on being pregnant because why not? Hah! However, this did not last all that long. I have found in the last few weeks I am struggling to feel like eating and I never know what I want to eat – which is super annoying! I’m hoping it’s just a phase and will pass soon because I’m pretty sure Ben’s getting sick of me winging dinners because of me not knowing what I want to cook!

The most exciting part of the second trimester for me – The gender reveal! I am the most impatient person and I have to be organised, so not finding out was not an option for me, Hah. I have to plan the room according to the gender because that is just who I am. Big up’s to anyone who has the patience to not find out though! It would be an awesome surprise but nope it is just not for me! If you do find out though, there are so many cool ways to announce it to everyone! Both times, I have had the sonographer write down if it’s a boy or girl and pop it in an envelope. With Harlee, we took the envelope to the florist and had her put either pink or blue balloons into a box for us to pick up and reveal down at the cemetery by my sister to ourselves and family. This time round, I gave one of my best friends the envelope and she dressed Harlee in either the blue or pink onesie we had and then again she brought Harlee down to the cemetery by my sister where we all found out again. It’s an awesome memory and cool thing to keep and show them when they grow up I think!

Now your probably thinking, Lacey’s pregnancy seems good and shes loving it. You are very wrong. I’ll be honest. I hate being pregnant. Okay, hates a strong word but I can easily say being pregnant isn’t for me! The first 20 or so weeks aren’t too bad but I do hit a stage of remembering why I don’t like being pregnant. Some people love it! I wish I did, but it is just not really for me. In both pregnancies at the same time, around 23-24 weeks I have this weird stomach cramping. With Harlee, I was super concerned because I had never been pregnant before and I did not know what was happening. This happened more than once as well throughout my pregnancy and I found it concerning that even after going to a&e, the doctors couldn’t figure out what was going on. When I got them this time round, I didn’t worry too much and tried to just stay home and rest and if they persisted longer than a day, I would have contacted my midwife. My midwife has put it down to my uterus expanding but it is really painful and doesn’t seem right!

I also begin to experience excruciating back pain around 25 weeks throughout the rest of my pregnancy. It is something to do with my sciatic nerve and where the baby sits I think. This isn’t just your ordinary back pain though, I remember it getting so bad with Harlee it had me in tears and struggling to even move. It makes the most simplest task, really hard. If anyone is reading this and thinking whatever, it cannot be that bad. It is. I seriously have a new appreciation for people who suffer back pain, I never knew how bad it could be until it happened to me! If you also suffer back pain, the only thing I find that gives me a little bit of relief is a hot water bottle! I did also visit a physio, which helped, along with wearing a back brace to help support my back!

Sleeping is another big one for me. I do not function well on minimal sleep and being pregnant does not help! I get extremely bad insomnia and find myself laying in bed wide awake for hours. The catch 22 with this is – I have really low iron levels. So not sleeping just makes me feel like shit! I end up with no motivation and a bad mood – sorry Ben, hah.

I know it might sound like stupid things but they are things that bother me and it’s just the start of me remembering why I don’t like being pregnant as all those things start creeping back. However, I’m creeping slowly into the third trimester and then before I know it, I’ll be approaching my due date!

I hope this has been a bit of an insight into the second trimester and that some of you can relate to how I have felt and know they aren’t alone! Anyway, I hope you are back for the next blog so until then I hope you all have a good week!

Lace xxx